Sunday, January 31, 2010

Provisions and God Providing

There is so much to be thankful to God for. I tell, blessings are blessings no matter when or how you receive them. Unexpected blessings live up to the title of BLESSING. I am so thankful God, for the blessings you have provided this weekend...and this very moment! THANK YOU!!

I will continue to praise you and give you thanks for all that you have done and for what you continuously do.

Just had to tell of the unexpected blessing received last night....thank you Lord!!!!!

More to come...

Thursday, January 28, 2010

So thankful...

My sweet pea had her orthopedic appointment on yesterday...thankfully the Dr. said that surgery could be put on hold because she isn't showing signs of arthritis or scoliosis!! That was very good news on yesterday and I am so thankful to God for that news. I could not stop smiling after hearing him say that.

I am a work in progress and I thank God for all that he has done for us, and all He is doing!! I had gotten to a point where I was worrying and wondering how we were going to make it had he decided to go on with the surgery. When 'sweet pea' isn't in school we have no additional income. Being out of work or having a slow doesn't slow the bills at all.

I am so thankful for supportive family and a few friends that really show their concern and consideration towards me and my daughter. I am especially thankful ( at this moment ) for Damon T. Warren, for being considerate and always asking about her, sometimes before he asks how I'm doing, and for him wanting to know how things are going with and for her, means a lot, especially when he 'dad' doesn't show that kind of concern!

Prayer: Lord, I want to thank You for each and every second of our lives, I know that trials come to make us stronger, but they don't last always. You have a way of making things that seem so big to us, and pressing, turn out to be a small matter. Thank You for grace, protection and love. Amen!

More to come...

Friday, January 22, 2010

Kiddie Pool

Never ending...

Since January 10, 2010, my 'sweetpea' has been having spasms/leg cramps, almost daily it seems. Some days they have been pretty bad, especially at night. After her weekly therapy appointments she seems to rest easier, not the case this Wednesday night, she had spasms afterwards. Last night was one of those nights that she didn't go to sleep until late ( 1:30 a.m. ) then awaken by spasms ( light ) around 3 a.m. , then around 5 a.m. she was screaming with a very tight leg...needed a massage and comforting.

I titled this one never ending, because it seems as if these trying times are never ending. I am and will remain prayerful because I know that God is always in control and this is a test of my faith. Lord, I know this will not last always! Thank you!!

At her therapy appointment earlier this week, I was talking with her therapist and trying to see if I could coax her into saying that just maybe her ortho specialist would possibly wait until this fall to perform the hip surgery...she looked at me like that's doubtful. She said with the spasms she's been having lately and the 'popping' of her hip, she didn't know that he would wait that long, but let's see what he will say on next week!

Trials and trying times come to us all and we just have to have the faith that God is definitely in control and will be our guide if we are prayerful and fervent with our prayers and praises. I am a work in progress and I thank you Lord for everything, and everyday!!

More to come...

Sunday, January 17, 2010


I want to come in here daily and write about all happy times. I will, right now, I'm at a very stressful point in my life. I am financially and emotionally desolate. I am still prayerful though. I know God cares and is watching over me! Thank you!!

More to come...

Friday, January 15, 2010

Trying times

The start of this new year, 2010, has been very trying for me. We are still pressing on! I've grown accustomed to appearing graceful and serene on the outside while on the inside there is constant struggle and dismay. Its what a dear friend of mine said is known as 'duck syndrome', on top of the water the duck is moving through the water so gracefully, but just underneath, there's a struggle going on. The duck is paddling like crazy to stay afloat and move through the water.

That's the way it is with me, I'm moving along but deep down I'm battling to stay afloat. Just the past two months there were things beyond my control that needed financial attention, now it seems like I've come to a stand still, there are still things that need financial attention right at this very moment, and payday is not here. There is a very strong indication that I will be out of work from an unknown amount of time because my daughter may be having surgery soon on her dislocated hip. I work with and for her, so when she's not in school, her mom does not get paid.

Like I've said previously, we've been here before, we will make, the faith in God has to remain inspite of all the circumstances. He will never leave us alone, He will not take us to an obstacle if we can't make it through it. God is always in control.

I have been offered assistance, but I think I let pride get in the way and didn't accept it. Now, I'm kicking myself because I didn't take it. I didn't because, at the time I thought it wasn't need and everything could wait until that 'payday', but that's not the case when you are getting calls.
I'm still holding on to that faith, because I know God is in charge.

A verse I'm glad I read today: Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. ‘The Lord is my portion,’ says my soul, ‘therefore I hope in Him!’ ” (Lam. 3:22-24).

I'm holding on because God is working on me, I'm changing, and growing!!

More to come...

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


First Blog, not sure where to start, but it seems like so much is going on in my life, so that may be appropriate.

If I were able to go back in time to about 9 years ago, you would see a naive young women, not knowing or expecting to be a mom before the year was over. You would see a young mom whose life was about to be changed forever, for the better. June 17, 2002...was a day that will never be forgotten, it is the day I was told that my precious little 'sweet pea' could possibly have a mild case of Cerebral Palsy. I had NEVER heard of it, had no idea what it was, what it did, what caused it, could it be cured, what were treatments for it, nothing.

After many tests, blood work, EEG's, CAT scans, MRI's, the diagnosis of CP came!! I felt devastated, like all the air had been sucked out of me, like my world stopped. I had no idea that her coward of a 'father' would turn his back on our daughter shortly afterwards either. She has had to have a big surgery that left her in a spica cast for two months.

I have to give thanks to God daily for my mom, sisters, and brother and other family members, because of them I still have my sanity and my daughter and I are living life BLESSED. There have been times when it seemed like there was no way of getting through, getting by, but we have made it and continue to do so.

Back to the diagnosis; I cried many tears, but I couldn't stay in that place, it wouldn't have been good for her. I had to buckle down, I started studying and reading whatever I could set my eyes on pertaining to Cerebral Palsy.

Eight years and 1 month later, my daughter is in 2 grade with me by her side daily as her parapro, that wasn't an easy journey either, but we pressed our way through that too ( more on that later).
Now, this present moment, it seems as if my 'sweet pea' will have to have another surgery because of her dislocated hip, an effect of Cerebral Palsy. For the past few weeks, her hip has been popping and lately she has been having muscle spasms causing her to kick her legs and interrupting her sleep at night. We've been here before, this time the surgery will more than likely consist of 'bone work' (if ever needed), through my research and study, she will be in a cast for a longer period of time. We will press our way through this too. God is in control of it all!

More to come...