Sunday, July 28, 2013

How do you prepare?

How do you prepare?  I've been asking myself that since last Tuesday!  How do I prepare, not only myself, but my daughter?  How do I prepare her for a third surgery in less than a year? NO child should have to endure this!  How do we get ready for the all the doctor's visits that are to come? The pre-op appointments with her orthopedic specialist and the new pulmonary doctor? How do we prepare for surgery day; the onslaught of doctors, nurses, anesthesiologists, specialists, etc... that will enter the room to introduce themselves before surgery?

How do I prepare for "several hours" of surgery?!?  Just the thought of that is so nerve-wrecking, to know that my sweet daughter will have to not only endure another surgery, but it will take several hours to complete.  I don't know how to prepare my child for, according to her doctor, at least another week in Children's Hospital?

This is a tough challenge we have ahead of us, one we can not avoid.  I'm so on edge and hurt by this because every surgery she's gone through so far, has been ones I thought could be avoided. They have been procedures that I thought I was doing everything for her to not have to go through them.  The February orthopedic surgery, I thought wouldn't happen because she was sleeping in her night time splints/AFO's, not every night, but even when she didn't sleep in them, she wore them the next day.  The March g-tube procedure, thought could be avoided by feeding her every three to four hours, buying lots of yogurts, apple sauces, mashed potatoes loaded with butter, my mom's homemade dressing, etc... This upcoming surgery...I  did what I was told, I put the scoliosis jacket on  Kerstin at night, and even after she didn't want to fall asleep in it, her doctor told me to make sure she wore in while she was relaxing on the sofa.  I did all of that! I still put the jacket on her, even after I thought she was pulling my leg and just didn't want it on.  Yet, her curve still increased!  She wasn't pulling my leg, we were told that the jacket had started to bother her.

How do you prepare?  How do I prepare?  The only thing I know to do is to stay prayerful, and know that she will be fine!  I'm trusting our Savior for that!

Psalms 55:22-Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain thee: He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved. 

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