Everything is becoming so real now that all of the doctor's offices are calling to remind us of the many pre-op appointments she has coming up. There is a full day ahead of us this coming Monday. The day will start with an x-ray of her spine followed by a CT of Thoracic and Lumbar spine, first ever visit to a pulmonologist, a follow up with neurology all followed by APASS (Anesthesia Pre-Admit Screening Service). What a day it will be!
I'm praying daily for the strength to carry on, but I feel so weak and helpless at times. When she's moaning and I don't know what is going on or what I can do to console her and make it better. When her arms or legs are shaking and there's nothing I can do to stop it. No matter what I do at that very moment, nothing seems to help...there's nothing I can do but cry and pray! It is very hard, most of the time. No matter what's going on, how I feel...it seems like there's no break, no sick days for me! So, I press forward.
Home away from home, in a few weeks.
More to come...