Weight, what?!?

     The latter part of 2017 proved to be very busy for us.  In October, Kerstin had her g-tube changed to a gj-tube.  That was followed by a very unexpected stay in Children's Hospital.  However, since October and the continuous feedings she has been on a constant climb in pounds.  For the longest after getting the feeding tube Kerstin's weight had been fluctuating between 75 and 80 pounds.  She was healthy and her nutritionist was pleased with her progress.   

     Things were going well until they were not so good.  Kerstin started to have these smacking instances along with vomiting which would lead to gastro issues and her aspirating leading to aspiration pneumonia.  All of that lead to a few illnesses and hospital stays last year.  For the most part, and thankfully so, Kerstin has been pretty healthy with no major issues, just allergies lately.  

     The past few months, at various follow up appointments, whenever she has been weighed, Kerstin is no longer in a fluctuating phase on this feeding tube journey, she has been on a steady incline.  well over 90+ pounds.  Normally this may not be thought of as an issue but when you are immobile and assistance is needed for everything, that kind of sudden weight gain can be a bit much.  So, simple changes have been to her continuous volumes made with the hopes of keeping Kerstin in her range of 80-85 pounds. 

     We will see where these changes take us...

More water intake!  Drink up.

More to come...


It's happening so quickly!

Cerebral Palsy Awareness Day...not just a day!

     I hope you have on GREEN!  Today is World Cerebral Palsy Awareness Day!  What does that mean?   Awareness to those that don't fully understand Cerebral Palsy.  Awareness to let the world know that more and more people are both with Cerebral Palsy and countless others are diagnosed with it every day.  What do you know about Cerebral Palsy?  

     Don't worry, Cerebral Palsy is not contagious!  Cerebral is of or pertaining to the cerebrum of the brain.  Palsy or palsies are muscular conditions that are defined by tremors of the body parts.  There are three types of cerebral palsy:  spastic, which causes muscle stiffness and difficulty with movements;  athethoid, causes involuntary movements and ataxic causes problems with depth perception and balance.  So, there is no catching any of those. 

Cerebral Palsy info

      For so many families, mine included, Cerebral Palsy is not just a term, awareness day is not just like any another day, it's life.  We live and battle each day.  These battles include those stiff muscles, seizures, wheelchairs, countless doctors, therapists, specialists, medicines, hospital stays, surgeries and many sleepless nights.  I haven't met a parent of a child with special needs that don't understand what I am dealing with and they have faced some of the same battles or they are about to.  Connections are so important. 

     Along with the struggles and the battles, there are immeasurable joys that come along with raising a child with special needs.  I know that raising Kerstin has changed my life in ways I will never be able to fully explain.  I am more patient, having to speak up for her has bought out the advocate in my...that voice that will speak for those that cannot do it for themselves.  I will type/write too!!  I am not only Kerstin's mom, I'm her advocate too!  She has forced me to grow and become a better person. 

My reason!

     So, as the world is made aware of Cerebral Palsy, I encourage you to follow some of the links in this blog post.  Read up on Cerebral Palsy and gain a better understanding of our loved ones living with it each day! 

Cerebral Palsy: Kids Health

World Cerebral Palsy Awareness

My first blog post:  Life!

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Changes...again!

     It is rare that Kerstin has a visit to Children's of Alabama without something changing.  Change is good, right?  I skeptically say "Yes", when things seem to be going in a good direction.  So, we were back, for another follow up, our second trip in less than a month.  Cannot forget that she has another...in less than a month.  

     This was a follow up with her pediatric surgeon...g-tube follow up.  Beautiful day, beautiful weather (a bit warm, already).  I must say, that I am very thankful for safe travels to and from.  I told my sister on the way up yesterday, that it seems almost scary that I can drive those 124 miles one way and it seems like nothing now that it's been done so many times. The things we do for our little ones.  

     Happy to report that Kerstin is continuing to gain weight.  In fact, she has gained so much that we had to see the nutritionist again to make more changes to her feeding plan and schedule. 
Her current weight is 72.38 lbs!!! March 28, 2013 before her g-tube surgery, she was only 34 lbs!  I have previously vowed to myself, that Kerstin was NOT getting a feeding tube!  I had heard so many stories from other parents along the way, stories I won't even share.

     At her appointment yesterday, I realized that this surgery has saved my daughter's life.  I can't remember the speech therapists name that assisted with her swallow study March 25, 2013, but I'm thankful she called me and calmly talked me into coming back inside the hospital to have her admitted! 

     I was so scared and couldn't see for the tears that filled my eyes but, I'm glad we turned around!  I know her doctor, we see him every six months.  Dr. Martin was so patient and so calm with this antsy, nervous and confused mom, that he asked if I had questions and actually stood there while I rambled through questions.  I was assured that we would not leave the hospital before I had information and training.  That training came in the form of pop-ups on the room TV and one on one with his nurse. 

     Kerstin has gained so that her feeding tube was getting too small so she had to have a larger one.  She went from 14 Fr/1.2 cm to a 14 Fr/1.5 cm tube.  No, I have not changed a tube yet, it still seems a bit odd and uncomfortable to me to see that little "unnatural" hole in her little belly!  But again, I'm thankful that I have sister that is happy to put her nursing skills to work and change them for me.  

     Now, to the feedings, her overnight feeds have gone down from 300 mL over 10 hours to 192 mL over 8 hours.  Her water intake is gone up from 60 mL per bolus to 120 mL.  Her nutritionist suggested the new schedule/ rate change since she has gained weight, and needs to maintain where she is for a while.  She mentioned that it is somewhat unnatural to eat while you're asleep and that is when your weight is gained.  I think she will eventually work up to not needing the pump at all overnight.  Fingers crossed!  So, for now, she will have a very wacky schedule for a while.  One that I will have to get very used to.  As with everything we're gone through and had to endure, we always conform.  

Received some great products in the #UnivoxBox

One of those products used to write a note to my HERO!  #PenItFFwd

*Products received for free from Influenster, so that I could try and review them.*

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Unexpected Happenings...One Year Later!

Spring Break is here once again.  This year on the Monday of the break, we were at home.  No scheduled appointments to Children's Hospital to see a neurologist, or to have a swallow study done.  That's exactly what we were doing this day last year.  

March 25, 2013 a day/date I will not forget for a long time.  
That is the day I was told that it was no longer safe to feed my child the only way we had used for 11 years.  We could not leave the hospital.  I still cannot describe the shock, the hurt and the fear I felt that day.  That week she spent in Children's is chronicled here.  

Kerstin at Children's Hospital-Neurology--March 25, 2013

A year later, Kerstin's weight has doubled.  She has outgrown pretty much all of her clothes.  We are in a slow process of building a new wardrobe for her.

Kerstin-both taken March 28, 2013 

I will say this about our feeding tube journey;  I never thought that I would have to learn to feed my daughter via a g-tube.  I was always scared of them.  The unknown, the horror stories I had heard just had me completely afraid and unwilling to consider it until I had NO choice at all.  Now, my daughter is thriving!  As previously stated, her weight has doubled.  She is still easy to get sick with viruses and things from "germy" school, but not as often.  

Kerstin--taken March 11, 2014

I'm learning about the g-tube everyday, a year later.  I have become more comfortable with using it, just not changing it, I'll leave that to my sister for now.  As with everything, it is a learning process.  We are always growing and learning!!

More to come...

Weight...among other things!

Happy New Year!! This is the time of the year when we start seeing all the commercials promoting diet plans, exercise equipment,  quick weight loss pills, shakes, sprinkles, etc...  We've all seen them, and most of us adults are tempted to try them because we need to or just from the mere popularity of them.  Some of our children could even benefit from a form of weight loss that is healthy and for life not fad.

My little one is the complete opposite, and on a mostly liquid, soft or puree diet; we've been on a battle with weight for some time now! God knows I'm doing my best and will continue to do so.  It just seems so frustrating when it seems as if my best isn't close to being enough.  In my eyes and mind!  In all of this, I can say that she has gained 1 pound from her December check to the January weight check.  I am so thankful to God for that, it just doesn't seem like it's enough for me though.

 It seems that way because we've had to deal with the development of a pressure area on her rear.  Due in part to the weight loss and a bony prominence! You don't know the tears I've shed in light of this. We've had to go get the cushion in her wheelchair "feathered" and cut to have a softer spot.  Her position is changed every so often, she's kept dry...things I was doing and it still happened.  OT doesn't want her seated on a "doughnut cushion" because of the risk of pulling and causing even more irritation.

Through all of this, we're still prayerful and very trusting that tings will continue to work in our favor.  Kerstin WILL continue to gain weight, the pressure area will clear!  I am so proud of my daughter and love her dearly!  She is making great strides at work on her Dynavox...had to treat her to something from her fave store, Target!

Another day...another weight check...

Wow, it's really been a month?!?! Sorry, it's been so long!  I have bee working and praying, seeking ways to get my daughter's weight back up.  I am convinced now that it has to be the medicine she is on for seizures.

She had yet another weight check today and is down a few more ounces from September 9 =(   This is heartbreaking, especially when the nutritionist keeps bringing up "feeding tube"..surprisingly I had the strength to tell her out right today, " No feeding tube"!!!

I'm on a mission now, (1) to get my daughter on another seizure, one that will not cause weight loss and loss of appetite (2) find all sorts of pureed meals and recipes that are high in calories  and (3) GET MY DAUGHTER'S WEIGHT BACK UP!!!

More to come...

Weight is coming back up!!

So happy, that on yesterday my precious little one had gained a pound of her weight back!  Still not what I expected, but it is a step in the right direction.  She also had occupational therapy yesterday and did really well!  So happy for her, for us!!  We are going to relax again today and enjoy the blessing of a air conditioned home!!

More to come...